Well, I’m half the man I used to be(This I feel as the dawn)(It fades to gray)Well, I’m half the man I used to beHalf the man I used to be~Nirvana Today, 17 May 2020, would have been the rare convergence of my Mother’s birthday with Mother’s Day. It would have been a day of […]
We cross paths to awaken each other.~Karin Dale The number of paths each of us crosses in a lifetime is so vast we may as well count them infinite. The implication, there have been incalculable hordes crossing the crooked trail of my life. I can count on one hand those guiding me to the deeper […]
I lived in books more than I lived elsewhere.~Neil Gaiman Should I take as a warning sign that I have more and better relationships between two hardcovers than I do with people? Should I be alarmed that I find greater excitement turning to the first page in a literary creation than meeting a living, breathing […]
Being deeply loved by someone gives strength while loving someone deeply gives you courage. ~Lao Tzu At what point does the courage derived from being “In Love” cross the bridge and become an obsession, the needs of the self slaying the person desired?
Far off in the red mangroves An alligator has heaved himself onto a hummock of grass And lies there, studying his poems ~Mary Oliver When I am an old alligator, Will I have the strength to haul My rancid soul out of the brackish swamp, Murky waters swollen with prey and decay, Warm amnion soothing […]
America was conquered, but not discovered, the men who arrived with a religion to impose and dreams of gold never really knew where they were, and that this discovery is still taking place. ~Eduardo Galeano The above quote made little sense to me until I saw the concept in terms of a relationship with a […]
I can’t wrap my mind around people caring that much about me. ~America Ferrera I don’t feel lovable. It has been that way for as long as I can remember. I would prefer to think it is because others lack the fortitude to love a person as complicated as the twisted canyons one must navigate […]
The world is my country, all mankind are my brethren, and to do good is my religion. ~Thomas Paine My belief that we are to exist as citizens of the world is mirrored in founding father Thomas Paine and his belief in transnational human rights undergirding his quote. Viewing myself as a citizen of the […]
I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. ~Haruki Murakami Beginning with my entrance into the phase of the horny teenager, I’ve spent my life seeking a relationship in which I feel loved enough to be myself without fear of rejection, of not being enough […]
Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood. ~Geroge Orwell I have given up on romantic love as a two way street in my life. It is not in the cards I’ve chosen to play. I could accept being understood, having someone dig deep enough beyond predicting my behavior […]
We are all mortal until the first kiss and the second glass of wine. ~Eduardo Galeano I can pinpoint the exact moment I transitioned from an immortality mindset to a mortality mindset. It was just before midnight on 24 Dec 2012 when I experienced the esophageal burning associated with a heart attack. Mine was essentially […]
I know the feeling, the feeling of seeing a place for the first time and knowing by the heat in the blood that I finally found my home. I was mentally aware home was out there, had pictured it in my head hundreds of times. But had never previously set foot on the hallowed soil.
My soul seemed as foul as smoke from burning cat hair. ~Kurt Vonnegut Evidence is mounting that my soul is a putrid cesspool whose stench drives people away destroying any phatic spackle that once created community.
Were those tears caused by the wound on her side, or did the pain come from somewhere deeper? ~Carlos Ruiz Zafón I have shed my share of tears, still tear up on occasion. The more recent tears tend to be when I witness beautiful acts of selfless kindness or misdeeds with abject cruelty at their […]
In the year of the scavenger, the season of the bitch Sashay on the boardwalk, scurry to the Ditch Just another future song, lonely little kitsch (There’s gonna be sorrow) try and wake up tomorrow ~David Bowie And so it came to pass, the selfish seeds vomited not so long ago by the plastic titty […]
All the stories in the Earth’s mind are connected. ~Joy Harjo We tend to view stories as spools of thread with a disconnected beginning, a winding path to an end closing the tale. Neat. Clean. In a similar way, the current political view is of the US as a monolith able to exist outside all […]
If you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them. ~Jodi Picoult I feel a need to isolate myself in a black hole where nothing can penetrate because the fear of […]
Sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast. ~Lewis Carroll I live in a fantasy world of my own making. Everything I absorb is filtered through the warped David lens. I cannot objectively observe reality. I am aware of my proclivity so understand what I think I believe may be impossible things.
Around me was not the absence of sound, but the sound of absence. ~Carmen Maria Machado I am haunted by the sound of absence, by the vacuum created when a loved one chooses to exit stage left, drop the curtain never to return. The final act renting a hole in my soul requiring years to […]
“Why are you sad?” “Because you speak to me in words and I look to you with feelings.” ~Leo Tolstoy For the longest time, I looked down with disdain at emotion, tried to ignore the fact of feeling in human beings, erase the constituent component that is needed for humans to be fully human. My […]